Monthly Archives: April 2014
Waif
Sometimes I just have to cry
the emotion sneaks up on me when I
am least expecting it
A happy day
sun shining
so why do I feel so blue?
Somewhere there is a wounded
little girl
frightened
not knowing where to turn
I can see her
I can feel her
but I can’t quite reach her
Each time I get close
and open my arms to embrace her
she scurries away
anxious about getting too close
I recognize the look of trepidation
in her large blue eyes
Her mistrust runs deep
With her dishevelled hair
unkempt clothes
her neglect is apparent
My heart aches for her
I want her to know
that people do care
she is not alone
The world can be a beautiful place
I want to keep her warm
her tummy full
her mind challenged
I want to find her
and let her live…
Tonight is going to be
a two bottle night
Misunderstanding
You’re going left
I’m going right
We both want the same
Yet we struggle and fight
The storm clouds brew
They swirl and spin
Meaning is lost
The tension begins
The sweetness, the romance
Gone in a flash
Hands draw into fists
Teeth clench and gnash
You make your point
I strive to make mine
The atmosphere charged
We need intervention: divine
Ears that won’t listen
They can’t seem to hear
All progress lost
Replaced by tears
I thought I understood
I now know I was wrong
Peaceful resolution
Is for what I long
I was so excited
I thought we were in this together
I didn’t anticipate
Communication stormy weather
Empathy
(This piece was inspired by imagining what the parents of the young man who killed five fellow students must be going through)
I hear you speak
but the words don’t make sense to me
My mind is swirling
thoughts flying in and out
too quick to capture
Maybe this…
What about that…
a fierce competition for my attention
Focus
one thing at a time
calm down
breathe deeply
Now, what were you saying?
A barrage of words assault me
and it takes every bit of willpower
to comprehend what the babble means
Instinctively I am in denial
I do not want to hear the message
coming my way
When I became a parent
I never thought this would
be a message for me
Your child is in trouble
Your child has been hurt
Your child is gone…
Your child is the per pe tra tor
Nothing prepared me
for a foreign message like that
My heart swells
it breaks
part of me shatters
and runs to the shadows
a place where no one can find
me
If they can’t see me
it can’t be real, right?
it can’t be real
it can’t be real
The world sees a monster
a psychopath
I see a sick child
my beautiful son
where is the little boy
I once knew?
Going to the Game
The train rumbles to a stop at the platform
and we board
oblivious to the announcements being broadcast over the PA
We are excited to be on our way to see our beloved team
caught up in a discussion about the impending competition
As we ride to our destination
I look at the passing buildings surprised at what I’m seeing
an entirely different view of my city
versus what I am exposed to when driving in my car
We are joined by other fans and revelers
the atmosphere charged with laughter and robust chatter
Disembarking we are caught up
in a surge of people
that swells with each passing of a staircase or entryway
I hang on tightly to my husband’s hand
then allow myself to be carried
along with the flow of the crowd
Snippets of conversation catch my ear
a laugh
a whistle
a hoot and a holler
We are going to the game
and right now that’s all that matters
fun for everyone
Priestess
The hands of time
shift and swirl
A veil of fog lifts to reveal
a precious new life
Beautiful Morgan
heiress in a long tradition
of ancient priestesses
She will learn
the knowledge of land,
sea and sky
Plants and animals will bend
to aid her
spreading peace throughout the land
She is blessed
All who come in contact with her
leave radiating a shimmer
of her infinite love
She is time
and timeless
She is Morgan
Her arrival timed to be
precisely now
A celestial chorus
cheers triumphantly
ready to guide and protect her
on her earthly path
Beauty
Wisdom
Knowledge
Morgan is here to teach
Here to love
Here to release
the constraints on earth
Lunar Eclipse
The full moon beams
brilliantly
over the sleepy city and quiet prairies.
Mountains on the horizon loom
tall and proud
reflecting heavenly light off snow capped peaks.
I imagine a change of guard of
celestial gatekeepers
taking place with this shrouding event.
Ancient Mayans envisioned a
giant jaguar
swallowed the moon making it disappear.
Local terrestrial citizens may
watch with awe
while others sleep
incognizant
to what is occurring in the sky above them.
As the spinning orbs
align themselves
and earth’s shadow conceals a large red moon
reorientation
is a possibility in our inner selves, too.
The moon
influencer
of emotions
and personality
may cause a shift within
whether we believe it
or not.
Shadows
My alarm beeps and I roll out of bed
spying a crimson glow on the eastern horizon
outside my window
The city skyline in silhouette against the navy sky
begins to glimmer as lights flutter on in preparation
for the work day
Outside, below our residence, shadows are shifting.
What lurks in the gloomy shade cast by the quiet buildings?
My thoughts accelerate to a gallop letting fear have the reins.
I blink back tears and calm my racing heart as I repeat: I
am safe. I am secure. I am completely protected at all times.
I continue to get ready for my day knowing I am not alone. I do
not have to fear the shadows. I can anticipate a carefree day
full of the promise I saw in the blushing sunrise.
Avoid Contact with Sharp Objects
Who knew cardboard could fight back so hard! Today my husband and I are assembling a desk and cabinet from Scandinavia. My job is to flatten the container boxes in preparation for recycling but they are resisting fiercely causing some paper cuts and a few choice words. The pieces were constructed in Indonesia and they arrive with French and English instructions. Actually, the assembly directions are diagrams that truly test one’s spatial awareness.
The protective Styrofoam skitters across the floor challenging me to find it. Days later, in the most unlikely spaces, the vacuum cleaner will coax the static filled little white nuisances out of hiding.
Slowly, methodically my husband places the pieces together as instructed. Each time I take a break from the stubborn cardboard I am excited to see the furniture taking shape.
A spring snowstorm passes by, the cold wet snow flakes in too much of a hurry to notice what is happening in our cozy study. The sky brightens and sun shines chasing the remnants of the flurries away.
We continue patiently placing dowels and screwing screws until finally sweet victory. With assembly completed and no leftover pieces it looks great!
The Missed Call
My phone rang but I didn’t answer it
we were celebrating
Was it you – hurting?
I didn’t want to be rude
despite the persistent ringing I stayed still
made no move to pick up the jangling device
I wasn’t expecting a call
I wasn’t expecting the interruption
I wasn’t expecting the silence, the hurt, the pain

