Sadness, sorrow, melancholy, blue
underlying feeling of loss
on the outside
can’t see in
Been together a long time
part of me won’t belong
No blame
No fault
part of life
hurts just the same
impossible to ignore
Not sure where I belong
don’t quite fit in
“Blood is thicker than water”
Not true!
How can own flesh and blood
own DNA
push one aside?
How horrible
Don’t feel real
so much promise
so much disappointment
struggle to maintain balance
push hard, run far
momentary blank
hurt from exertion
instead of internal pain that rises
problem yours
not mine
Not so!
can’t pretend nothing is wrong
Silence
holds far reaching repercussions
drifting, senseless unease
Many wonderful opportunities
Daily gifts provoke gratitude
Still…
Deep sense of something missing
close to the edge
threatens to swallow me
Whole
A fine balance
take care not to misstep
Weave and dodge through daily routine
skill of one who seems to have it all
A smile here, nod there,
cluck of disapproval
hug for one in need
Others oblivious
Terror
slip in the abyss
Hide it well
Sadness permeates all I do
Take nothing for granted
Much to be grateful for
If only I knew
Where I belong
ScribbleDartsfromtheHeart 
While I observe in life that for some, blood is thicker than water like you, this is not true for me and I don’t believe we’re in the minority. So what to do? What works for me is to forge strong bonds with those whose hearts and minds I connect with and with whom I share mutual respect and integrity. Hard to push the DNA connection aside but when it’s toxic it only tears us apart and causes us to live our life in a way that places blame and responsibility on the wrong shoulders.
I believe what you say is so true, Karen. Learning boundaries, and learning to let go of a toxic relationship can be very difficult. Focusing on relationships of mutual respect and integrity can make the letting go a little easier to accept, and help keep one’s own sense of self intact.