Worthy

What happened?
Did you decide that I
am not worth knowing anymore?
Thought processes
going through your mind
resulted
in the conclusion
“she is not worth it”?

what does it mean
to be worthy?
Worthful
Worthy
Worthwhile
Worthlessness

Someone worthy commands
respect
or is held
in high regard
considered desirable
the relationship valuable
worth saving

An incidence once
stopped me in my tracks
I was advised
“Demand respect
Make him listen”
How is that possible?

I have fallen
short of perfection
My pedestal broken
My tiara cracked

the truth is
I was never perfect
I’m sad that
inefficiencies and flaws
have driven you away.

Funny thing is
I do not want to go away
disappear from your life
I am not willing
to skulk to a corner
feel sorry for myself

I do not accept
your version
of who I am

Frankly,
I don’t really know
who you think I am
Would you be able
to answer that?

The road hasn’t been easy
I almost capitulated
to your angry image
almost surrendered
my precious soul

I know I cannot
demand respect
or love
or a relationship
I cannot
demand
anything at all

I stand before you
warts and all
waiting
patiently
for your eyes to open
because I feel
I am worth it

9 thoughts on “Worthy

  1. cestmoicah says:

    I love it!!!! Spoke to me! 🙂

  2. cestmoicah says:

    Reblogged this on cestmoicah and commented:
    This is amazingly the truth! 🙂

  3. Karen says:

    We can never be the person someone else wants us to be. That would mean living life less than who we are. And yet…how many opportunities do we turn away if we vehemently say, ‘This is who I am, take it or leave it”? Life is such a balancing of these very tensions that exist within each of us.

  4. ange says:

    We are worthy!

  5. Meghan says:

    Oh I agree with you other posts – your poem shines with truth!! I recognized myself in your poem as I went through my separation & divorce. That you “do not accept your version of who I am” tells me that you know you are worthy. And when you know that you are worthy you know you deserve love and respect.

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